Loneliness and Belittlement

Don’t know everytime after hanging out with her I feel very sad and angry

Not because that she treats her better or whatsoever

Don’t like it when she mentioned she is always ai mei with people

It makes me think that she was not loyal to me

It makes me wonder why everyone in the world is like that

Bf, L, P etc.. a lot more

Make me hate this world more

She also reminds me that I don’t have much friends…

Its quite true

Every week

Not too many people look for me

They do their own things

No one does actually sms me

Except for L and S

They care about me so much and will ask me out

The rest

No one would really ask me out

Why does she need to brag about how many friends she has

In order to make me feel inferior

I understand that a lot of people look for her

I understand that she will never feel lonely

But meanwhile I feel so insignificant

I feel like I have no friends

Especially when it comes to birthday

Yeah nv and colleagues celebrated

But it wasn’t something bad and extraordinary happy

Other than that not many people called me during birthday

Not many really do remember me

You know how it feels?

I feel belittled

Just recalled that when I was in Bem it was not always happy too

Perhaps it was a place for me to escape, avoid, and run

And rarely thought about suicidal

I didn’t have much friends too

Maybe people found it hard to connect to me

Ben and yv always together

Em rarely bothered abt me

Jam, virg, lai

But rarely a whole group of friends

I did not really have a whole group of friends

Ever since high school

I couldn’t find groups of friends htat I truly feel connected to

None in college

A few in university

A few for colleagues

That’s about it

Unlike her

I know you have a lot of friends

But my tolerance level is very slow

Im fine with u having friends

However at the same time it makes me feel very small

And I am jealous

It makes me sad at myself

Who do I have no friends

I am happy that I am no longer with you

Now I am with a guy who is reaching in 3 / 4 hours

Super anxious

But I don’t know what to do with him