depressssssseded

i seriously think im depressed
i wake up feeling terrible
terrrribleeeeee
eyes aer still swollen. quadruple eyelids
so hard to be happy
so easy to get angry
im lost
my head and soul is not functioning
so weird

my throat hurts
eyes are swollen
i dont know how to differentiate lies and truth
when i checked i know that he is lying about something
after i talk to him he never admits his mistakes
he attacks me verbally back and keep being defensive, finding reasons for his behavior
this annoys me so much
why cant he explain it clearly that can convince me to believe
im so tired
he changes his password immediately
doesnt it indicate it more that he is trying to hide
thats so scary

why
why i cant get along with so many people
i yelled at hl. im not that close with lc. the rest are not very close either. i hate talking to wy stimes because she tells me the truth
bf complains. mum and bro do.
how do u want me to change
so hard
i dont like the world
i have so much anger and negativity
i really thought of kiling myself
why cant i just do it
why do parents and family always pop into my mind

sigh sigh sigh
not much friends
very pathetic