wo yi jing zhi dao cong di yi tian qi wo men bu shi he dui fang
que yao qian qiang yao zai yi qi
mei tian chao jia chao jia
shang xin gshang xin
hen xin ku
zhen de hen hen xin ku

wei shen me ta bu ke yi wei wo xi sheng
wo tian zhen de yi wei
tong hua hui bian cheng mei man
itan zhen
tai tian zhen
bu shi mei ge nan ren dou hui wei zi ji de nv ren fu chu

bu shi
you complain about the system, money, family everything else
all u think about it urself
thats it
i already know tha u cant take this
neither can i
breka up it is
im so fed up
soooooooo fed up
full with anger
i wanna lash it out
i wanna kill myself and kill u
i wanna ask u to diee
theres no more love
i dont dream abt u
th onl thing left is bu she de
and afraid of lonely
ni zhen de bu shi he wo
zhen de yi dian dou bu shi he wo
zhen de shi hen hen hen bu kai xin
gen ni zai yi qi zhen de hen hen hen xin ku
yi wei yi xmas hui lai wo men hui hao hao jiang huani gen bu xiang li
ni xin li mian yi jing jue ding ni bu yao gen wo zai yi qi
nan guai ni mei you da an
yin wei wo zhi dao wo men bu hui zai yi qi

ji mo
lonely on a christmas
24th christmas eve nothing special
normal karaoke
when others are partying hard
how come no friends are asking me out for a hardcore party
25th night everybody else party hard
no one asks me out
its okay
merry my mas
lonely
depressing
blue
hate my life
hate myself

whats new

canot stand it no more
nge gap means nge gap
no matter how hard i try
no matter how much he does
i wont be pleased
i wont be happy

i'd rather be with myself
and have alone time
rather be alone and lonely
its okay
im not dealing with this anymore
not even comforatble with how he physically looks
how to bear with him
who cares if its christmas

so what if im moody
u never comfort
all u do is yell at me for being moody
have u ever listened from my perspective

im not ready
and i dont want to sacrifice for u at all
yes its true that ionce told u to bribg me back
but u missed that opportunity
u let me down

now im telling u that i dont want to leave my familyy
i know my family will love me for who i am
its okay to not have bf

i miss u 3470

he said
"break up. can't take it. you can't even deal with your problems"
how many times has he been saying this
especially after i have come back home

once in Langkawi, it sounded so real
a few times lately

i miss him
i want him to message me or call me

at the same time
i think its a good break
i need to clear my mind

it really does sound like he wants to break up

this is scary

i didnt mean to argue with you or hurt you
i just wanted to lash out
i feel useless
maybe im not in love
my tears are dropping
my lung is lonely
my limbs are cold
i feel so helpless
u told me that it was so nice so happy before you met me
if thats the case why try so hard to be with me
i think im not in love too
maybe i dont know how to love you
suicidalllll oh suicidal
scary